I never wanted to.
Monday, March 3, 2008
I need help, dearest blog! I am so going to die if I don't release the pain, anger and vengeance I'm keeping inside. As you can see, a friend helped me discover something at first I was really feeling as it was. Well, probably it could be a mystery to you readers because you don't know a single thing related to it. Everything is going wrong. A little too wrong. As everything around us changes, others change in the same way as nature and technology evolves and releases a new version of it. LOL. I hope you understand. [Let's just say that only Mystery Friend knows about this.]
Testing days is from March 4 - March 7. I hope I could get high scores in the periodical exams. But, I don't I could if I won't study. LMAO. Actually, I do study. I got myself stuck with my Religion, Computer and English books all afternoon and I found it sooo boring to read three books. If you finish the first, go to the second. Once you finish the second, you get into the last book. After the last book, it was supposed to be your freedom. I didn't get my freedom after studying. I had to go back to the first book I read and my brain needed to have surgery and repair 26 parts inside and outside of it. ROFL. Yeah, right. Like I could see my brain inside.
Couldn't take it. So I just listened to Incubus' music repeatedly. I played all their songs and I played one song from The Jonas Brothers which didn't mean a thing for me. Hmm, no song means the best to me anyway. But deep inside, I'm screaming a song title I shouldn't mention. LOL. And I don't think nobody but me knows about that. Haha. I like talking to non-living things. I even talk to the computer. Haha. Can you imagine how crazy I am to talk to gadgets and plants? LOL. I do it all the time.
Guess what, reformated computer. ADOBE PHOTOSHOP CS3 EXTENDED is gone! Waaa. All of my artworks, files, stories, music and everything else is gone! The advantage is we've got the Yahoo! Messenger back but the things I stored and kept for so long just had to go. I haven't finished the blend of The Jonas Brothers yet and I didn't get a chance to list down the titles or names of the fonts I've downloaded. That's the time I shrieked and freaked out for good. I didn't even know the computer was about to get reformated! Maybe you think I'm over-reacting because I could still install my CD of Adobe Photoshop CS3 Extended but I can't. The CD was borrowed by my cousin and I wasn't comfortable at using her Adobe Photoshop CS2. I am so feeling sad in the 3rd day of March. I didn't expect that things would turn out this way.
Somethings aren't just meant to be but I'm not reffering to people. I just don't get the point where everything has to change and we need to grow out of it. C'mon, it's fun being a kid and I don't want to grow yet. But, things are really coming faster by the minute and people are forgetting certain things they shouldn't forget. Once you know you've got a lot of new things, you'll forget the old ones and leave them like trash and that applies to true life. I hope you get my point. I am so down. I hope I could get over this in an instant but I don't think that won't be possible since I'm eager to get my revenge now. I just couldn't resist the temptation of getting the feeling you want to pay back for all the things you've got that you couldn't do back to those who did that to you. I'd never thought I'd say this but I WANT TO GET MY HANDS OVER SOME AROUND. Then once I'll get the things I need to know, I would always play the nice gal but I couldn't this time. I'm showing them why they should learn to treat me someone more than a personal assisstant and I am not a person to get pushed around to do things. I'M NOT A MAID OF YOURS, NOR AN ASSISSTANT OF YOU. I hate those people who think their too high to be reached for a level that someone could atain. I'm just putting my feelings unto this blog. It's better for me to release my anger than to get someone physically wounded and torn-apart in the inside. I am going to be the greatest dream if you want to, but the darkest nightmare if you don't.
I got to end this post. I'm going to kill Bugs Bunny if I don't release my temper on pillows.
The heck! Just end this effin' post!