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Faith Allyson. 11 years of age. I love listening to MUSIC. Definitely something I couldn't live without. My family, friends and God are the most important people in my life and there's nothing you can do to change that. Currently happy and loving my own life yet I know some of my friends hate me. LOL. It's pretty obvious, don't deny. I love Fall Out Boy, My Chemical Romance, Boys Like Girls, Maroon 5, Panic! At The Disco, Incubus, Good Charlotte, Green Day, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, The Click Five, Paramore, et cetera. Haha. Too many to mention. Black is my favorite color, so is gray. LOL. I make graphics. I enjoy playing with the computer, talking with friends, listening to music, etc. Haha. I have to go. See you next time. Teehee.

xx,
- Faith. :]

Now Playing:
Emotionless by Good Charlotte

F A I T H

F is for - She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5
A is for - Warning by Incubus
I is for - Dance Floor Anthem by Good Charlotte
T is for - Minority by Green Day
H is for - When You Look Me In The Eyes by The Jonas Brothers

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Teh Past.
January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008

Plender. Buena's Multiply. Buena's Blogger. Jhoana's Blogger. Jhoana's Multiply. Ate Claudine. Ate Marzzy. Ate RJ. Ate Sherry Ate Jade. Julia. Ate Diana. Trish. Pau. Reeza. Ate Kai. Angelx. Aleea. Cathrene. Bet. Lialee. Bea.

You?

Wala ako sa mood mag-post ngayon kaya mag-ta-tagalog ako. Eh, sige. Taglish na lang. Hirap nga namang mabuhay. Sana pala `di na lang ako pinanganak ng nanay at tatay ko. :( Ayaw ko na. `Di ko talaga kaya `to. Ewan ko kung bakit galit na galit `tong mundo na `to saken. Wala naman akong ginagawang masama.

Nagpunta kami sa party ni Adriel. Masaya naman nung simula ng party hanggang huli din, masaya. Hanggang pag-uwi, masaya paren naman ako. Meron na akong stuffed toy na ELMO. Yehey. :)) At least kahit `di pantay `yung mata ni Elmo, hindi duling. Yung kay Joshua, duling eh. :p :)) Sabog.

Ewan ko ba kung bakit wala akong ma-kwento ngayong araw na `to. Siguro kasi masama loob ko o `di kaya pagod ako. Hay, naku naman. Ganun na ba kadami ang kasalanan ko kaya bumabalik sakin lahat?! Anu-ano ba kasalanan ko?! EwanEwanEwan. Wala akong maintindihan sa buhay ko! Masyadong private para i-post dito sa blog pero wala naman akong pagbabalingang iba kung `di etong blog ko. Yaan mo na nga, sa stuffed toys at unan ko na lang ilalabas ang lungkot ko. Nanlalata na. Wala na. Sabog na ang mundo ko. Naku, sana nga.

Sige na. Tama na.
Sa susunod na post na lang.
Nakakayamot mag-post.

It's almost 11 o'clock and I don't have time to post a long story about the past days and nothing really happened the past days that made the excitement come in. How about today's story? It would help me more 'cause I have no time to post. I just asked my mom if I could open the PC for at least 10 minutes. LMAO.

Today was pretty fine. I had a rest today 'cause it's Sunday. I woke up 9:00 in the morning and I took a bath by 9:45. Well, we were supposed to attend a 9:45 mass, yet I was still just taking a bath that time. I woke up so late. Instead, we attended the 10:45 mass. Well, no other choice. I didn't expect to wear a blouse today and it made me shriek. I don't wear pink and oh-so girly blouses. I got used to wearing black t-shirts and I love it. LOL.

Afternoon, I got the rest I wanted. I went to my aunt's house and there I got relaxation. LMAO. I haven't got relaxation for about 5 months from now. LOL. That is so not true. I got my Adobe Photoshop CS3 to work again! :)) While I was at my aunt's house, mom told me I had several phone calls from Plender, Andrea and a guy who told he was my classmate. (No other boy calls in here except for Jerome, so I took him as a guess. And called him to confirm was it him, and YES. It was him again.) I am so tired of getting phone calls from the same people. :)) Nah, they talk and get into a good conversation, anyway. :D

I can't post much longer. I'm fitting in 20 minutes to transfer my files into something. :)) LMAO.
Oh, look at the time. Gotta go. Maybe, tomorrow. :))

The good old childhood days, wherein Elmo of Sesame Street used to be noticed. Well, I still notice that red, talkative puppet up to now and it gets me bothered everytime my brother tells and calls me ELMO and I am so not Elmo-like. Yeah, right. But when I talk on the phone, I keep singing the traditional Happy Birthday song with the voice of Elmo. Well, that cartoon is really not like me and I don't immitate Elmo, nor do I idolize him.

Days get weirder than ever and I can consider this 21st of February an enormous disaster. I hate this day. Morning, I woke up and did the same paths that I should do. And I got to school and the day was goin' perfect until the end of Religion class and that indicates recess period. It sucks, really. As usual, I always get down when all the sections of Grade 5 get downstairs and it means I'm the only Grade 5 pupils who goes down the latest. I would buy C2 from the canteen and I would sit beside Plender in the bleachers wherein we're supposed to eat at. I came in late and it was raining. I did sit beside Plender and 10.3 inches beside me was Abelardo. [i hate the day whenever he pops into the story.] Actually, Jerome was really supposed to be there. He just moved to the right side of Abelardo. Plender kept saying "Ang dumi dito pati ang sikip! Sobra! Usog ka nga, Faith!" and so did Jerome tell Abelardo. Until me and Abelardo got to the point we were really close and still, both Jerome and Plender kept complaining that they had to space and it was dirty in place they were seating at. When they finally ended, Plender told "Walang tatayo! Bawal yun! Hangga't di ko sinasabi!" and I wanted to stand up. Jerome was telling Abelardo "Chaves, akbayan mo nga si Faith." but good thing he wasn't such a fool and a robot of Jerome to follow those orders. When they released us, Abelardo ran toward Dominic and I ran towards Clarice and Kryz. Then, I cried silently because I got so angry.

Ruined day. Oh-so ruined. I entered the classroom sad and still hatered in my heart. And I don't know why I got soooo angry that time. Maybe because I really do hate getting picked at, don't I? That's why whenever they tease me, I learn to fight back. Either through voice or through hurting them. ;p All the day was fine but I had some issues in Silence Period. My seat was occupied by uh, some group project materials. I believe it was paint and styro. LOL. Our group was finished with the project so I had to sit in a vacant chair between Jerome and Abelardo's group. I kept looking at Abelardo's small Pikachu stuffed toy and it's really funny that we're fighting about it. I HID IT. :> It was in my pocket the whole time.

We presented the report about Former President Joseph Estrada and we had lots and lots of manila papers and type-writing paper and I didn't get a chance to read except for the first manila paper. I just played with Pikachu. Afterwards, me and Abelardo kept calling each other "abnormal" and "baliw" repeatedly. Well, I stepped on his foot 'cause I got soooo angry. LOL. He fought back anyway and we stepped on our foots through-out the day. Ouch, my feet are aching. Haha.

Time I got home, I opened up the computer and noticed a lot of people were online already. Two people got online. Unfortunately, this seems like another day that gets me sick. You know, the days including fights. LMAO. I think you already know who you are. (Hint: The names of these people were included in this post.) SHE signed out and left an oh-so hurting group message which I didn't expect she would say. Minutes later, HE also signed out. His excuse was to do his Filipino assignment. But, guess what - THE PHONE RANG. It was the person who told he would do his Filipino assignment. Wow, dude. That was the greatest excuse of someone who would sign out I ever heard. Since the calls he made was registered into their telephone, he saw we were already talking about the "fighting issue" or whatsoever, we were talking for 61 minutes. That means an hour and a minute. LOL. We put the phone down and we both learned our deeds. Will tomorrow get any better?! Probably, worse.

ENOUGHSAID. i`m endin' this post. lawl.
** i`ve been typing for sooooooo long.
-- award for this post :: longest post of the blog. lol.

If you saw my ever weird status, let me explain it to `ya. I woke up 5:30 in the morning and as usual, took a bath and ate breakfast. After, I got dressed. We went to DFA again for the appointment schedule and we had a hard time falling in line because it was raining. Some guy held the megaphone and ordered us to get inside Gate 3 so that we wouldn't get rained at. Our schedule was 11-12pm. LOL. I knew I couldn't get to school by 1 o'clock. The trip from DFA to our house is an hour and a half. We fell in line for 2 hours, I think. After that, we successfully ended up to an LBC inquiry so that the passports could just get delivered. Me, mom and my aunt got tired of falling in line for 2 days. I hate falling in line and standing up for 2 hours and a half.

By the time I got home, I already told mom I would go to school without changing my clothes. Guess what, I wore a black shirt and jeans on class. LMAO. Nevermind, I went to school 2:00 in the afternoon. I only stayed there for one hour and I didn't get into any mess this time. I peeked at the window because I didn't want anyone to see me. But, it was really sunny that time and the class was all noisy and most of my classmates were scattered around the room. Well, I always knew that when it was English period and we had seatworks or projects, we all get noisy and oh-so talkative. Andrea peeked out the door and saw me before I could run back downstairs and screamed "FAITH!!! Miss, andyan na si Faith!" and I totally shrieked out and wanted to run but unfortunately, THEY ALL SAW ME ONCE ANDREA SCREAMED. Err. : I was forced to get inside. Peter told me. "Ang aga mo para bukas ah!". That explains my blog post title for the day. You shouldn't have read this post. :))

OKAY. YOU HAVE HEARD ENOUGH. End post.

From now on I hate PE class. It's about the pasigin dance we're currently dancing. Really, I hate it and it's killing me. I don't know how to dance and the bad news is - we're gonna present it on the next Tuesday. Aw, man. I wish I could vanish in the face of the Earth. I wish I was had an exemption in PE Class. LOL. Grr. ;p




They kept teasing me today. : Especially two people whom I just gotta hurt. I'm hating you two for this and I've been hating you for a long time ago. Well, most of the class keep teasing me because yesterday, I was absent and so is someone else. They told me we went on a date but hell we didn't. I already told at yesterday's post that I was getting ready for my passport and the other person is sick. ; It's so irritating. Then the morning, they all thought he was absent. When all of those who hasn't passed the letter yet stood up, he knocked at the door and told if he could come in. They all looked at me and I gave them a look that I find 'em weird with a matching "what?!". :p I am so over-reacting a while ago.



So hurt today. He opened his locker and only realized the rose today. Well, he thought deeply who was it from. And he still doesn't know up to now. Stupid, right? ;p I asked a friend of his to tell him to throw the rose away. First, he told that he wouldn't throw the rose away unless he knows who gave it to him. A couple of minutes, he threw the rose away. LOL. Good thing. I was about to explode in embarassment with that. ;p

ENOUGH SAID. Post ends here.

I have got to start thinking of better blog post titles. :)) I just hate that I can't of any title today. My brain is already ambushed by a thousand of thinking needles. Guess what, I've got a lot of requests. : That's what's making me think of ideas and ways. I really know that I lack time for relaxation. And don't ask why don't I use the time I post here rather than lying down my bed and getting at least 2 hours of sleep.

Anyway, it's Monday and I didn't attend class. I was absent to make it more truthful. I didn't do that for no reason at all. Me, my mom and my aunt went to DFA to get a passport and guess what, I'm going back there on Wednesday. : That is so awful. I need to go to school by 1 o'clock just to copy notes and assignments from my classmates and get special quizzes. Tiring.

I woke up 5:20 in the morning. Took a bath, ate breakfast and got dressed. It was like I was going to school. Except I went to DFA and I suffered from long lines. A lot of people were lining and some just took the lead. I got mad at one guy and I told him nicely "Baka naman nakikita niyo pong maraming nakapila? Siguro naman po ayaw niyo sumingit, nho?" I can't believe I told that to someone older than me and someone who I don't know. But, he went away and went to the line where he belongs. My mom told me "Anak, ang tapang mo naman." I didn't talk and started to chewing gum ONCE MORE. I can't live without gum and I was listening to music that very moment. Then we got inside and once we were finished, we ate lunch and went home.

Not noticing the clocks around me, it was only 12 o'clock. I wanted to go to school but suddenly, I had a severe ache in the stomach. After, I changed my mind. I still went to school just to copy notes yet, I ended up teased. : X( I hate some people in the classroom because they keep teasing me. : ( Note to that person: Hindi nga ako si Chaves at anong koneksyon ko kung absent kami pareho? FYI, `di kami nag-date. : ) Okay.

ENOUGH SAID. I'm ending this post. ;p

Okay, I didn't post for four days straight. LOL. I forgot to post and I aslo forgot my password. I didn't noticed I saved it somewhere. Thank you, technology. LOL. So, I`m gonna tell you some stories about life. Yeah, right. Life the past four days I forgot to post.

First Day I Forgot To Post - February 12, 2008 ; Tuesday
We had a cool experience but we missed some of our classmates for half of the day. We had to use the Science Laboratory as our classroom because selected pupils who will take the achievement test will be using our room. I got teased to much but thank goodness, the guy they teased me about was taking the achievement test. LOL. Life-saving moments and I thank God for that. Ericka Anne shouted out loud "Abelardo love Faith!" and it creeped me out 'cause even our Filipino teacher heard it. And to make it worse, John Patrick told Ericka to reverse it and shouted it again. She screamed "Faith love Abelardo!" and that was the time I got distracted and wanted to fight back. But temper, temper. LOL. Then a few hours, the students who were taking the achievement test were out of our room and we could return already. Good thing. LOL. It was so hot at the Science Lab that I wanted to sleep.

A Day Before Valentines - February 13, 2008 ; Wednesday
I creeped out today and prayed a hundred-kazillion times that Valentines Day could be a holiday so that there wouldn't be classes. I hate receiving love letters, roses, chocolates and a thousand more things to receive this Valentines Day. Well, I've been praying too much yet it wasn't done. Nothing good or nothing bad happened a day before Happy Hearts Day. LOL. I hate the day. Particularly, nothing happened today that was able to make me happy nor sad. I really really hate the 14th of February.

The Day Of My Death, I Mean Hearts - February 14, 2008 ; Thursday
Protection from gifts! I didn't want to wake up this day and I wanted to pretend sick but who the hell would even fall for that? Everyone knows I barely get sick. Well, I came late to school and the bad news is - I GOT A LOT OF GIFTS TO SEE. I got inside and saw a lot of gifts. I wanted to cry and react yet I couldn't. I wanted to throw the gifts from boys but I didn't. LOL. One of Plender's admirers gave her a rose and Plender gave it to me. It didn't end with me. I gave it to someone else. Since he was absent, I left it in his locker and arranged the things in his locker. It had sand and rocks inside. LMAO. But I helped the cleaners clean the room after club meetings. I swept the floor instead of the cleaners did. Me and the korean girl swept the floor. LOL.

The Day After The Wreckless Hearts Day - February 15, 2008 ; Friday
It was uh, okay. I did like it but I was misserable. Since when was I misserable, anyway? I got a big problem today because of a fight that's pulling me in between. Right, _____ and _____? Haha. LOL. I don't mention names. He already went to school and saw the rose. LOL. But, I think he didn't mind it. Nah, who cares? I just put a rose inside the locker and arranged it. Then we had a project in Science which I didn't care about. I had no time to start it. I was too lazy to do it. Obviously, I started it. Why wouldn't I? I would only get myself into trouble. But, some boys really didn't start it. I hate drawing and that's what I project was about. I wish I could be better in drawing. Oh, in case someone corrupts that. I wish I would be a better artist forever. LOL.

Today, I Dunno Why I Posted - February 16, 2008 ; Saturday
Finally, a weekend. I woke up early and I think I was bothered for some reason. I went downstairs and saw no one was awake except the house people. I opened the TV and saw nothing good on TV. I decided to walk around the house and still, I didn't know why I was bothered. I guess it's about the argument of my two friends. One friend and one bestfriend. LOL. I wasn't able to watch MIT 20. I mean, I woke up early but I changed the channel. Yeah, right. Well, I have no plans for today so I'll be online for about 23 and a half hours. Just kidding. So I need to bid goodbye now. I'm tired of typing. ;p

You should've wondered why the title of this post is I Can't, I Won't. It has something to do with my conversation with Jhoana Marie. JM, you're the only one who knows what that means. I hope you won't tell anyone. Nobody knows that except you, okay? Back to the topic. The title is really something nobody could, would and should ever know. Obviously, it's PRIVATE.

Nothing made my day. I knew it, the same as yesterday. If the morning starts out good, the whole day breaks and cracks up. I hope tomorrow, I'll start the morning cranky. :( I didn't have a good time and the past days, I didn't have one.

Upcoming Valentines Day seems to work out bad for me. I've got a Valentines curse. I don't like celebrating it anyway. I mean, why have fun in a day of broken hearts? Man, that is so not cool and so not great. I didn't have any fun the past Valentines Days anyway.

It's a miracle. I've updated my Friendster account today. Almost everything is new. Well, I think everything is. I changed my layout, my profile, my background music, my primary photo. Added pictures, comments, friends. Received new messages, too. ** and a lot of it. : Haha. I'm planning to change my background music. I found a lot of profiles with the same music.

Well, I gotta bid goodbye. I think this causes for a sleep. I wish I sleep well tonight. Pray for me, dudes. : Man, I need your help - MCR! :(( Just kidding.

I don't know what would make me better. Should I choose you who is the best-est friend I've ever made since childhood or you that takes the misserable side? I'm just confused because I made the wrong decision before. This is a problem I can't forget through the night. I wish you two would get along fastly. I can't live like this, guys. You two are my best friends. Hope to see you laughing together soon.

Nothing looks positive. Well, I made my day really bad. The day starts out good, it ends the worst. I wish I didn't have a great morning. :'( Creepy days. I wanna give up but I just can't. I find myself brave for this and what is happening to me?! I'm feeling bad. I don't wanna keep living like this. I've carried a lot of problems since the year entered. Probably, I wanna wish for a better year or at least a better week.

We had the stations of the cross today and I didn't have those swollen feet like I used to when I was in the 4th Grade. Haha. It ain't funny, and still - I put a "haha" thing-y on the sentence after. I don't get it. Do you get it?

I borrowed a book from one of my classmates which was entitled with something related to a Golden Puffin. I'm loving the book but still - I don't know where my classmate bought it. I'm shy to ask it, a little TOO shy. :)) Er, there goes another laughing material. : I asked him if I can use it overnight but look -- I ASKED VIA PAPER CHAT. What a crazy thing. I'm too shy to get teased again. : I feel the anger inside whenever the phrase "Yiehee." goes on and is told directly or indirectly to me.

Hmm. Let's see. I opened my Friendster account today and I found a lot of comments and messages but I still didn't mind it. My main goal there was to change my password. I think someone can open it and he/she might've looked into my keyboard. Haha. Nobody could fool me. > Never.

That could be all for now. Maybe the next post is tomorrow and I hope the problem is all solved once I post again here. Okay, my eyes are drooping and falling. GOODNIGHT, PEOPLE.

Wow, I realized that I didn't post for two days. I think I've forgot to post. Yesterday was really awesome. Haha. I slept late but I still forgot to post here. What kind of blog owner is that supposed to be? xD

I had quite fun yesterday. Tita Jean, Tita Alona and most importantly -- Ate Xinia was here. They turned on the videoke and started to sing songs. Too bad I was doing homework and studying that time. Man, missed out on all the fun. Haha. Anyway, I've got new graphics yesterday and maybe I'll post it tomorrow. I'm too lazy to post it today. Sorry. xD

Today wasn't the way I hoped it would turn out. I've got something deep inside me that'll never be erased. Like thorns wrapped around a rose. Haha. Maybe the world is just tearing me apart, making me feel this way almost all the time. I wish I had powers to dissappear whenever I want to. :( It just makes me feel sad.

I wanna ask myself -- why do I feel misserable and pity-full today and yesterday? It wasn't the wasn't turning out so good. Nah, maybe my story would make me get my head off those things. I'm planning to make a new story but not until I finished this one. Okay, I've been typing for quite a while and I'm tired. I'll just post better tomorrow if I don't forget to post. G`Night Y`All. :] Haha. Tomorrow again, okay?